What will I do with you
When I'm away?
I knew a reminder
As I saw you today.
This is no longer
What once I held dear.
Somehow I lost you
To longing and fear.
Is there a way
I can soften that heart
And be all for you,
Though we're apart?
What will I do with you
When my night is come
And rays from the sunlight
Are what I'm running from?
I can't help you then,
For my night's just like yours.
Be warned: I am nothing
Behind these closed doors.
I am so weak,
Much as I hate it.
My feeble spirit
Breaks though I berate it.
I cannot help you
Lest hypocrisy win.
But the old now is gone;
Renaissance will begin.
What will I do with you
When I awake
And find I have given
Too much for your sake?
Will my heart feel
A touch of regret?
I've not forgotten
My own failings yet.
What will I do with you?
The question remains.
What good can be found
In calling you names?
You're not where I am,
And until I find
A way to still reach you,
You won't fall behind.
What will I not do for you?
I'll keep trying until
You and I both realize
That I'm loving you still.
postscript
Wishing someone knew how much I care. Wishing I could fix the problems, and not knowing how. Just holding on and loving anyway, no matter what. God give me strength. I'm so far away.